what I cannot see

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are being wasted away, inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
2 Corinthians 4:16-18

GESHHH. That's pretty much all I can bring myself to say.

The past few weeks have been so far from fixing my eyes on the unseen. It's more been...figuring out whats right in front, worrying about the next item on my agenda, a constant stream of details running through my head. GO GO GO GO GO GO! THINK THINK THINK THINK! DO DO DO DO! AHHHHHHHHH. Yep, Paul got it right when he said we are outwardly wasting away. Welcome to my life.

I'm a bit dramatic I'd say...ehh...yeah. So I have long convinced myself that my "light and momentary troubles" are the exception. Paul had NO idea how hard my life is, how busy I am, how many responsibilities I have thrown at me. Light and momentary my butt..no...MY problems are MASSIVE!!! ha.

Funny story--my troubles are far from massive.

So...my mission here is to figure out the being "inwardly renewed day by day." THAT is what sounds good here. SO how in the world does that happen???

Welp, if we are supposed to fix our eyes on what is unseen, that pretty much means...nothing I'm fixing my eyes on now. So..every worry, stress, and anxiety I have now---off limits. No focusing on those Lauren. Everything..even if now I think is good...is gonna be overshadowed by the SPECTACULARNESS of things to come.

So, I'm coming to learn that the things that are right in front of me--the things I think about most--are far outweighed by the things I can't see--the things the Lord has for me. So basically...my life can only get better. Things that are great now, can only be greater. Waiting for what God has only brings the absolute best!!!!

ummm...that excites me!!! The fact that I can, no, I'm commanded to trade every anxious thought for something glorious the Lord has in store for me, something I can't even see. And, by trusting that....and by unfurrowing my brow a bit and saving myself from years of wrinkles, I'M GETTING RENEWED!

yeauh yeauh yeauh. Thank you Jesus.