truth.

Well lovlies, it's back to the real world for me. The last 2 weeks of my life have been spent in absolute state of unreality, and now, I'm back in Abilene, back to work, and back to my run-and-go normal self. Staying up too late, waking up MUCH too early, packing my day full from sun up to sun down. Welcome gentle people to a day in the life of Lauren Keenum. But, here I am. One thing I've come to realize throughout the last few weeks, is that life is always worth enjoying. No matter what season, no matter how much or how little is going on, no matter how much I actually feel like enjoying; it's worth it to enjoy! So, even while I sit behind this boring grey desk in my biz-cas pants; answering phones, putting stamps on envelopes, and taking payments (which I still have NO idea how to do!!!!) I will enjoy every minute!!

Lately my days have been filled with a consistent battle to choose truth. Truth about who I am, truth about who God is, truth about what He is saying. Why is it always a battle to believe God? You see, the truth can sometimes be tricky..and yet so simple. You believe the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. But see, sometimes I get caught in believing part of the truth, some of the truth, a little of the truth. Well, part of the truth is simply not the truth. Part of the truth is..well, a lie. That's it.

Honestly, I came to a point of wondering if it was even worth fighting to believe truth anymore. I mean, really, what is the big deal? Well..

I read this article, if your interested...
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/jon-foreman/possessed-by-truth_b_515051.html

anyway, my man Jon is a much deeper thinker than I think I could ever dream to be, but I was struck by the concept of what he was pondering in the article.

"If I view the truth as my possession to keep safe, I might feel the need to protect my faith. But if I am possessed by the truth, perhaps this protection is no longer needed. Maybe I am set free from the need to defend the truth, rather the truth defends me."

So, in reality truth is more than what I believe, truth is who I am. Believing truth is more than just believing a book full of facts about a god who may or may not care about me. No, truth is believing that there is something worth believing in. My God is Truth, and He possesses me, fights for me, and believes for me. When I believe who He is and what He says, the truth becomes who I am. It changes from a fight to believe, to a peace in knowing that the Truth is fighting for me. The truth is my passions, the truth is what I'm living for, the truth is confidence to be who I am.


My God tells me what is true about me and about Him.

And I believe Him.


"The 'truth' of loving those around me, the 'truth' of seeking justice for the oppressed, the 'truth' of a life of service -- these are truths to be possessed by: to be a slave in the service of the kingdom of the heavens, to be the servant of all. If the truths in this life have no owner then we are set free: free from the need to defend the truth, free to be possessed by this truth and simply live it out. Truth becomes much too large for me to possess; truth is the beauty and authenticity which possesses me."