Aimlessless

I have this feeling again. It's the overwhelming, indescribable feeling I get when I'm so unsatisfied being here. My stomach turns and I feel like I can't sit still. I want so much, yet I do so little about it. I feel so lost, where do I even start? I have dreams and visions and passions---yet I feel as if they are put on hold. Fianls! School! Friends! Responsibilities! What are so many things more urgent now? Lord I need a step. I need something concrete. How can I begin to bring these dreams within my grasp. I long for so much more, I don't know where to find it. I cling to Psalm 62 that says
"My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken."
I'm in a time where my soul is seeking, searching, hoping for SOMETHING or SOMEONE to find rest in. That comes from You, Lord. My soul can find rest solely in seeking, searching, and hoping in YOU.
So what does that look like? I've always been a fan of practicality...how do I cling to you Jesus? I know so much in my head, but I've found of recent that the bridge between my head and my heart has fallen.
I was talking to a dear friend of mine recently about the armor of God. We talked about how the Word is our sword, the only offensive weapon we are given. She mentioned that she believed that the Word is also our shield. The more I thought of that, the more I believe it. We use the Word to fight evil. The bible tells that by resisting the devil must flee (James 4:7)..and thats using the Word as a sword. It only becomes our shield when the transfer happens. You know, that movement from the head knowledge of God's word to the heart-felt, dependence and need for the word. When you believe and cling to His word, His promises, His truth, then and only then does the Word become a shield. That's my desire, Lord. To believe Your word in such a way that I can defend myself against the lies that I am aimless. As I seek You, my desires will become ever more meshed with Your desires for me.